I Should Have A Prize
Really! I should. Have you seen the time it has taken me?
Really! I should. Have you seen the time it has taken me?
December 2017. That is when I signed up on Medium.
December 2017!!!!
And not a word has been written. Until now. Why? I haven’t the foggiest idea! Except, I have the most peculiar tendency of getting ideas, insights, inspirations about stuff to write about or programs to create and once I have finished it all in my head, it’s sort of done.
So no program. No blog post. No article. No nothing!
I remember years ago my NLP teacher said to me: “You just want to get there!” To which I protested. Some years later I realized he was right of couse and I didn’t quite get what he was saying (our brains plays tricks like that on us when there are things that needs looking at or dealing with which we are not willing to look at or deal with.)
Obviously, I still allow myself to function that way. I mean, I signed up to Medium not ONLY to read inspirational stuff, but also to write.
And here I am well over a year later and NOW I am writing.
It is of course also a case of not knowing what to write about. As if life itself doesn’t give you just about a godzillion inspirations….
And then there are a few completely stupid thoughts, like e.g.:
“Everyone else is already writing about this”. Or: “I am not a professional writer so it will never be good enough”. Or: “English is not even my first language, so who the hell am I to think this will ever work”. Or: “Why in the world would anyone want to read any of my stuff”
The list could go on and on. Only I am not available for more of that! They’re all lies anyway, right?
It’s about sensing and knowing that I have something to share. And to come to terms with the fact that I genuinly enjoy writing and choose to first and foremost write for that reason.
Those who are meant to read it will find it. I am not writing for likes and claps. Though my little human self will know to appreciate it when it happens, don’t get me wrong here…..
So consider this some sort of introduction to me. My mind moves in mysterious ways, so who knows what I will come up with next. And speaking of “next”: That is my challenge to myself; to make sure there will be a “next”.
I can promise you whatever I come up with it will be presented with all the love in the world, though at the same time direct, pragmatic, authentic and souldriven. With the odd swear word I might add. Keeping to a minimum though. Is it just me or have you noticed the potency in swearing?
So, I am clicking publish and from here it’s just about doing it. No more just talking to myself and keeping it all in my head.
And the prize? You can keep it. Having written this and published it is the greatest prize.
Are you also on the fence about writing? Jump off it and just do it!
Till next time; Ease and Joy!